no one will understand ..

='{
i'm sick of crying.
this feeling really sucks.
it's so hard to decide.
i hate making such decisions.
i want no regrets.

that missed call...
i don't know who's that initially.
i rejected it due to carelessness.
but God asked her to call me back again.
He spoke to me through her. feeling so much at ease now.

yet, i need time...
to find the real smile back.
right now. . what ever my answer to ppl is just a =} , a hidden feeling is behind this smiley face.
sorry. i need time to find myself back.
i hate it when i'm sucha weakling!
i swear, that's not me!

i wanna SCREAM!