definition of lousy

adj., -i·er, -i·est.
1.Infested with lice.
2.Extremely contemptible; nasty: a lousy trick.
3.Very painful or unpleasant: a lousy headache.
4.Inferior or worthless: a lousy play.
5.Slang. Abundantly supplied: lousy with money.

no.4 describes me right now

full stop

free like a bird now

im officially outta work. it's a good and bad thing.
school will be commencing in 2 weeks time. it's pretty short actually cuzzz time flies. i bet getting back to student life is way better than working. but being a poor student? it's a nightmare. im going to have this nightmare!!

i wanna get some things done ASAP! to lighten my burden. once it's done, i will start it all over again, right from the start. i feel like im so pathetic right now! :(

on a random note...
i wish someone could tell me what to do next.
sometimes, im at a total lost. this sucks.

what will happen next? how are things gonna be like?
only if i know..
well, that's life.

no one understands how i'm feeling right now. .

everyone is telling me the same thing.
'don't disturb you'
yeah, do what you said and just leave me alone.
thank you.

i wish i can faint right now.

my dearest boy..

A 3 year old boy made me smiled when I was at the lowest point.
He made me smiled again when I find it hard to force myself a fake smile.
Amazingly..
Just by a word from him can do wonders in my life.
Just by shouting for me when he heard the sound of my keys at the doorstep..
Just by telling me he hasn't seen me for a day and misses me.
made my heart smiled and hugged him so tightly.

Perhaps, this is what i define as LOVE.

And now.. he's 4 years old..