if only u can make me believe that you'll give me happiness..

i dont want to envy people.
i want others to envy me.. just for once.

I suddenly got the feeling to blog so here i am (:
well, today i started off with a bad day. now it's only 10:06am. and it's already a bad day. i dare not imagine the later part of the day.

i felt so bad and guilty. i dont know what to do..
i disturbed Pei Qi last midnight and today, i woke her up by smsing her early in the morning.. i'm so very inconsiderate!!!!!! :((((((
she told me it's not my fault, but i know it's mine.. I hope PeiQi won't feel cranky today.. i cannot forgive myself :(

bad day, so i went for my best remedy. it helps a lil, but not totally.

well, since he doesn't like letting ppl know our problems, i shall not say anymore. but treat me nicer at least??? all i can say is, dont regret if anything happens :)
of course, i will not do or say silly things about threatening my own life. this is insanely childish and it's an irresponsible thought.

i felt better penning down my thoughts.
hope people ard me - friends and families will have a much better day than i do (:

BUSINESS LAW


ECONS

I feel the stress.. :(
kinda scary.. i just wish i wont flung this semester..
2 more modules.. accounting and biz statistics..
oh Noooos! God please save me!

bye-bye 2010

Everyone is bidding 2010 goodbye in fb. So.. i shall follow the norm. HAHA.
Nah, the real reason is.. I'm too bored now!! It seems as though I'm wasting my last day of 2010 right now. But i guess, it's just the beginning of the day?
Prolly i will get more excited when the sun goes down and skies turn dark totally? (:
Not too sure, but well, let's see how.

Okay, side track abit, I didn't sleep well last night. Had another weird dream, and i totally forgot what i dreamt about last night. i woke up at 5+ am and can hardly get back to sleep. My neck is very stiff now and damn i wish my neck can just drop off and roll on the ground. heavy max!

Back to saying bye-bye 2010.. One year just.. pffff! gone like that. so what have i achieved in this one year?
Honestly, there are really quite a number of things achieved and I thank God for all these achievements (:

This year, I will welcome 2011 in church. I thought this could be very meaningful, counting down with the presence of God. How wonderful.. :D

Resolutions Resolutions ..
what resolutions do i have for 2011.
i shall write down somewhere in my diary (:

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO UUUU READERS/BLOG HOPPERS.
May u have a blessed year ahead.

having a dream can really affect my feelings, thoughts, emotions, decisions and actions.
sigh, it's a nice dream but ... i doubt any changes can be made now.

im gg out for a walk soon :]

i think im having serious pms. who cares anyway. all girls do that, dont they?
i've disappoint my sis and i was so hurt by what my dad said to me earlier on. he should be angry with me now anyway. i'm utterly disappointed with them too.
BUT thanks to them, i've become more determined.
determine what? i wont mention here cux i think this is my personal problem and i will solve it myself.
until now, mum doesn't know anything about it and i think it makes no difference if she learnt about it.

at the very least, i've been taught something.
i learnt that no matter how perfect something may seem to be,it can never be; everything is imperfect..

i've been wasting my holidays. shd've find a proper part time job & earn some bucks instead. anyhow, i want to rest on my first sch hols in uni life (: i know, im sucha a lazy person.

today we're gonna celebrate grandma's birthday at the coffee shop below my blk (:
im sure it will be a good one!!

im seriously bored, especially on Saturdays!!! hoho i had my longest sleep last night! and i woke up 2hrs ago. went jb last night with sis n all. had ramly burger and i swear it was so sinful!! my face is so bloated now!!
i need a jog badly!!! can't wait for the coming SCMS!! (: SOOOOO EXCITED!

anyway, this is just a random post la. i didn't intend to do any blogging initially. HAHA.

have a BLASTFUL day, people!