that fear.

hasn't been concentrating at work these days. my heart is in a whirl as this friday is nearing. i shall not elaborate why. i just hate this part :( i got a gut feeling something is going to happen. let's see.. i'll face up to it no matter what. . .

i've been wasting my time after work recently. argh! this is seriously bad. i got quite a handful of stuff to settle. but it's not fully done. i'm not saying i'm busy or whatsoever, just that i got no energy to settle all at once. if things are left undone, my heart will not settle down for a day or next.

EVERYTHING is in a mess now. .