last remedy.

sometimes, tearing is the last yet the best remedy for one when he/she is feeling down.

no?

sorry cousin if i scared u at the start of the work (: and thanks for joking with me all day long. . .

convo with passenger ytd.

after serving and talking to him for a while..

passenger: hmm you are not local right?

me: yes i am.. paused.. huh, if i'm not local then what do i look like?

passenger: you look like indonesian.

me: LAUGHS. aiyoo.

grandma.

it's been awhile since i visited grandma on sundays. somehow, i missed her so much.

honestly, it's kinda bored gg to grandma's however, i think this shouldn't be the reason for us to not visit her.. other than doing nothing there, i've been caught up with work recently on sundays:( before i started working, i was caught up with revision and stuff. i'm sucha bad granddaughter.. grr.

i miss talking, joking and listening to her(: will visit her soooooooon!

work wasn't fun at all just now. monotonous style of working. quiet and cold. irks.

i'm getting bored down there and sometimes, i don't like it when some things happened. sigh.

i can't wait for the vacation!!(:

weee! sis sis will be taking me to pedicure soon(: soo love!

some things will be done pretty sooon(: let's just wait n see..

overslept.

wells..

unexpectedly, i woke up super late today for work. supposed to leave home at 6am but woke up at 6am instead. how wonderful.. blame myself for not being able to hear the alarm or...overslept too much after the alarm was off. hmmm..

i jumped out of bed immediately after hearing the door bell and dad's voice. got a super cranky morning again.

my hair was in a mess this morning, with just a hair band. no make up and with my glasses.

i guess i must have looked terrible. some colleagues questioned me with qns like 'where did you go last night ah?', 'go out with boyf ah?' and 'why you look so pale? sick ah?'..

and supervisor concluded that i'm in love. LOLS. zhenshide.

anyway, the good thing was that we were not late for work. thanks to my dearest papa for sending us to workplace. awww. amazingly, he didn't have to work today(: loves. and i soooo love him more cux he gave me cash to make new glasses. he's soooo awesome. HOHO(:

&&&.. yesterday was rather a bad day for me. my fault again. for being blur and silly. argh. sucks big time!!! GRRRRRRRRRs

on a side note, i was so pretty disappointed that i couldn't get to see max. i miss him sooooo much. i wanna give him a BIG BIG hug!! hope to see him sooooon(;

on another side note, im feeling sooooooo gay!! (: will be visiting tioman soooooon! so LOVE. finally my summer vacation is nearing! awwws.

the short hair.

LOL! found this random pic. 4 years back when i got short hair. kinda funny.

anyway, JustForLaughs(:

that fear.

hasn't been concentrating at work these days. my heart is in a whirl as this friday is nearing. i shall not elaborate why. i just hate this part :( i got a gut feeling something is going to happen. let's see.. i'll face up to it no matter what. . .

i've been wasting my time after work recently. argh! this is seriously bad. i got quite a handful of stuff to settle. but it's not fully done. i'm not saying i'm busy or whatsoever, just that i got no energy to settle all at once. if things are left undone, my heart will not settle down for a day or next.

EVERYTHING is in a mess now. .

awesome day to sleep in.

had a pathetic 2 hours or less sleep last night:( totally listless during work and i did a big mistake. careless me. aiyoyoyoyo. in anyway, work is over for today. hope everything goes well at work tmr.hoho

&& it's sucha nice weather to sleep in. though it's not rainy, the skies were dark and cloudy. had a 4hrs nap and i thought it was a bliss(: i feel happiness now. HAHA.

anyway, final grades were out. thank God for the grades even though i didn't fare well, but at least improved as compared from the first. (: officially waiting to grad now! HOHO.

i love kinder surprise!!! saw at cold storage after work and grabbed a box! &&& the coolest thing is, it's HIPPO toy in da egg! how perfect!!

so gonna get it again!! hopefully it wont be oos so soon!!!

I WANT MANY MANY TRAYS OF KINDER SURPRISE!!! ♥ yes. i am greedy(:(:(:

loves marmie + yami yogurt!

today's my off day! no plans actually except for the night, going back for guitar practice.

actually, i've no heart to learn whatsoever. i just miss the days being there, as a student and the people there. again, i'm missing something.

walking alone back to school in the evening with my mp3 on was pretty much awesome! the skies were blue as though they were painted using blue poster color. everything seemed to be in slow pace and totally relaxing.

i'd love to look at the blue skies again someday..

having said that, i went back school in the evening because i had a wonderful time with marmie earlier on. though i was pretty pissed off with her initially for disturbing my sleep:( i forgave cuz she woke me up for my well being; breakfast with her. i skipped mine today.

i decided not to on my laptop after i woke up cux i will definitely feel vvvv lazy! instead, i jumped to her bed and had a 45mins heart to heart talk(: decided to go jp for a walk with her and i had my yami yogurt!! and lunch after that. dimsum, like finally!(:

back to work tomorrow with cousin(: i wont feel so lonely. yay!

meeting usual people after that(: guess it's so gonna be a fun fun night(:

those talks we used to have.

nothing last forever and some things can never happen again.

it's already too late to treasure what we used to have when we come to realization.

this is the part when it becomes part of our memories in our lives.

all we can do is 'miss having it'..

nothing more than that.

i wish i could own that talk..

counting the days.

worked like a mad dog for straight 5 hours just now. tons of email to handle, almost every few minutes new mail popped up either one or a few at once. phone calls here and there too. good thing was time pass faster that way(:

i'm tired of working, at times. ha!

had some fun just now and it's been some time since i have it. HOHO.

saw a beagle on my way to work today and it reminded me of MAX. damn thing. i really miss him. i so wanna get one when i got my own apartment. beagle or toy poodle? teehee(:

can't wait for this very moment.

i'm easily distracted these days for don't know what reasons. i could just stone while people talk to me. this is really bad.

so many whys in my head.. it's irritating!

it's gonna be another week(:

this week is so gonna be my sleeping week because I don't have to wake up early at 5am every morning! YAY! But on the other side, it's harder for me to go out :( unless late at night.

I'm going to church camp this June at M'sia but my passport expired 2 days ago. I need to renew my passport ASAP! Hopefully by this week. TEEHEE.

ohyea, last night was my first time to jalan kayu with some guys. HA! I know I'm a lil slow. well.. I stoned almost the whole night out. I was totally tired..

sometimes, i can't figure what i want..

if only i could stay home.

tired after cousin's 21st celebration last night. almost dead during service just now.

gonna work soon :( during a rainy day.. i wish i could stay home right now to have a ultra nice nap.

argh.

hate the feeling after nap.

feeling a lil cranky right now:( having being disturbed by phone calls during sleep is the worst thing ever and I really hate it luh. Now I wish I'm going to be sick!! having blocked nose and slight headache now. This feeling sucks to the MAX! :( and.. i really miss Max luh :'( I WANT TO SEE HIM!!!

Received a call from my dearest Sq during work. Felt really apologetic that I couldn't have much time hearing her out and I guess she felt really really lousy today.. For my dearest sq.. I wish you will have a better day each day!! Filled with smiles EVERY single day(: and I LOVE YOU!! hugs(:

Work has drained me out thoroughly. Feeling so listless after work:( BOO.. Easy and monotonous job can kill one too. Should I go for a full time job? In a dilemma but this ain't no big issue for now(:

UNI UNI UNI. sigh. Don't really like when people ask about it. Don't know why. Let's just wait for the outcome alright. I don't want to add on to my stress, at least for now.

I want to watch movie!!! Can someone please date me out for a movie pretty pleaseee? hohohohoho.

I'm so gonna make a new specty soon!! (: weeeets!

the very sweet craving(:

Sweetest craving;

just a casual remark and ... (: thank you, thoughtful man.

On a side note, should I continue working or help out with us2pets? or both? This really makes me ponder.. It's all about decision making again.

Sometimes, I really hope I can be selfish and have it all (: but I'm fully aware that it is not possible.

I ended up staying at home again. I intended to go back for practice today but my body refused to. Had bad stomach cramp at work and funnily, there's tons of work to be done at the very last minute during the knock off time thus left workplace slightly later. After the journey back to Jurong area, I decided to rest at home. So see those going to Friday(:

angry day.

another pissed off day!! encountered rude customer on phone this afternoon. it really boiled me!! ARGHHHH! on the other hand, i'm really angry with that someone who gave my no. away to play dare. HELLO?! still play this kind of game? i really would LOVE to know who is that GREAT FRIEND of mine. idiotic! please don't make me lose trust in my friends.

My phone finally died on me after 4 years. I shall be phone-less for days i guess.. till i get myself a new one. Sis lent me her Nokia phone but I'm so not used to using and I don't like. Anything, just call my hse(:

can't I have a happy day? just for once?

shopping before work.

Went down earlier to have lunch with sis sis before our work at 4pm. Bought 2 heels. hurhur! Finally got the ones I wanted; love at first sight-must buy! lols. Sounds like a typical lady? Sometimes luh, not always(: Happy anyway.

I can't make it for guitar again): kinda miss.. But it's different now.. well, I'll still be back if it doesn't clash with work(: next week, perhaps.

I miss going out with many people. ahhhh!

unsettled

I've got tons of things to do ): apart from work, I have to apply and vex about those uni applications. Other than that, there are this and that. I haven have time to register for this. GRRR! ): And it's been months since I made appointment with Eden Clinic.

I so wanna go IKEA & movie when I'm free!! Perhaps next week (: I guess I've influenced csy to go IKEA. Now he's the one 'pestering' me saying he wants to go. hurhur. I can't wait to meet up with Kwok & SQ for dinner!! & for the guys... it's be super long since we last met): aiyo. when? when? when?